twohundred

arrived in budapest this morning. watched the sun rise from the train window over frosty fields filled with deer. staying in the most amazing hostel, so inexplicably lovely.

new found addiction to sunflower seeds, best ever.

miss them more than i can ever say.

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secrets

she wraps a smile round her tired face
sick of his heavy rap

this black betty wants to listen to some spiderbait

and there's sunshine on the window

but it doesn't make her happy like she should be

and he remains her silver lining in this tangled cloud of caps and hoodies

what role does she play?

the lead female

this is no longer his monologue

it's the long lost story of this 'he and she', the lyrics to their forgotten song

built first in single notes, then bars then whole movements as he sang it proud from the rooftops

she kept it hidden with the ripped ticket stubs in a shoebox

opposites attract

until he noticed she didn't know the words

and this flight soon crashed as their wings uncurled

his movement of notes rose and fell off the page in a slow mutiny

their lost symphony transformed into two remote soliloquies

and this queen of hearts is now too bent to play

uncrowned, she's pawned off her kingdom, a hasty tray

but it's better to have held aces and castles and gambled all your stakes

mistakes make jokers of us all

a wrong hand played; it all shuffles and falls

a silver lining somewhere links it all

loose pieces kept together, taken apart

back to solitaire

hearts

she wraps a smile round his tired face

and he around hers

and for a moment

they aren't so tired

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i'm evil

i think the kids are in trouble

do not know what all the troubles are for

give them ice for their fevers

you're the only thing i ever want anymore

live on coffee and flowers

try not to worry what the weather will be

i figured out what we're missing

i tell you miserable things after you are asleep

now we'll leave the silver city 'cause all the silver girls

gave us black dreams

leave the silver city 'cause all the silver girls

everything means everything

it's a hollywood summer

you never believe the shitty thoughts i think

meet our friends out for dinner

when i said what i said i didn't mean anything

we belong in a movie

try to hold it together 'til our friends are gone

we should swim in a fountain

try not to disappoint anyone

now we'll leave the silver city 'cause all the silver girls

gave us black dreams

leave the silver city to all the silver girls

everything means everything

i was afraid i'd eat your brains

'cause i'm evil

i'm a confident liar

had my head in the oven so you'd know where i'll be

i'll try to be more romantic

i want to believe in everything you believe

i was less than amazing

don't know what all the troubles are for

fall asleep in your branches

you're the only thing i ever want anymore

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hdsjgbfdgbfd.

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see you january 26th you slick man,

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te iubesc

3 hours of sauna/jacuzzi/heated outdoor pool goodness. so tired today, i think it's a good sign that i was suitably relaxed. next time it's going to involve a massage and a facial. excited.

i would really like to dye and cut my hair now, but i think i'll have to wait til i get home, as i have no straightener here. damn.

short fringe? y/n?

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